God, today I try to return to my “normal”: to my work, friends, routines that help me take steps forward in my life.
But God, my body, mind, and soul would rather stay in the well of grief in which I’ve been abiding for the past two weeks. The aches and nausea ground me to the cellar of despair.
I look to you, God, to throw down a ladder and climb each rung with me until I’m back into the world.
The world will look different. I know that. My old normal will feel like a lifetime ago. And there will be times I will fall into the well again. God, you will fall and climb with me in the roller coaster of grief. Your presence is the only constant that I know.
The Rev. Michelle L. Torigian is the Pastor of St. Paul United Church of Christ, Old Blue Rock Road in Cincinnati. Her essay “Always a Pastor, Never the Bride” was in the RevGalBlogPals book There’s a Woman in the Pulpit. Torigian blogs at http://www.michelletorigian.com.
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