I’ll be honest,
I don’t know today even if it’s worth it to pray.
Not because of You, but because of me. Because of us.
I don’t want to throw out some empty words, or desperate words, while feeling helpless.
There is money to donate, protest to engage in, kindness to share, I know.
I want it to make a difference now,
I want hearts to change now,
I want it all fixed now,
I want it all gone~~the heartache, the terror, the immorality, the hatefulness, the embarrassment, the awfulness.
I just. can’t. even.
In my helplessness, show me my power, O God.
In my despair, reveal my strength.
In the dying in my soul, uncover my Life-force.
May I rest in my dissonance long enough to honor it….
and then may I have the courage
Rev. Karla Miller is Minister for Community Life at the Old North Church in Marblehead, MA on the north shore of Boston. She is also a contributor to the RevGals book, “There’s a Woman in the Pulpit.” She rarely blogs at do.love.walk but sometimes posts her sermons there.
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