Soothing Spirit, my heart and head are off today. The unsettling vibration in my soul overwhelms me today. Something is off- –
Today is one year. One year after his death.
The makeup of my soul was forever changed that day. And when the winds of September swirl around me, I feel the change of life’s energy that I experienced last year when he was taking his final breaths.
Today I will be easy on myself. I will give myself grace when my mind is filled with grief’s fog. I will step aside from my routine to self-care as I need.
And God, I need your peace to lift me into tomorrow- back into my new normal and the world without him.
The Rev. Michelle L. Torigian is the Senior Pastor of St. Paul United Church of Christ, Belleville, Illinois. Her essay “Always a Pastor, Never the Bride” was in the RevGalBlogPals book There’s a Woman in the Pulpit. She also has chapters in the books Sacred Habits: The Rise of the Creative Clergy and A Child Laughs: Prayers for Justice and Hope. Torigian blogs at http://www.michelletorigian.com.
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