I don’t want to be afraid.
I don’t want to be scared or worried or so power hungry that brilliance is a threat to me.
I don’t want to manipulate or scheme or sneak around or plan attacks.
I don’t want to be so afraid that I lash out.
Help me be humble.
Help me be generous.
Help me be confident.
Help me be brave and wise and faithful.
Help me to notice brilliance, Your brilliance,
at work in others,
at work in surprising places and surprising peoples,
at work in ways which are not my own,
singing in a voice that may not be mine,
dancing with moves I can’t even imagine,
help me notice and not be frightened.
Help me to notice your brilliance wherever it may appear,
and to be drawn toward it.
Help me to seek it and follow it.
Help me toss my own agenda to the side when I feel your brilliance tugging me a different way.
Help me speak the words your brilliance provides when I feel them lurking in the back of my throat.
Help me shift to the side, in love and faith, when I watch your brilliance shining through another vessel.
Help me wonder at the joy of being near that brilliance at all.
Help me to find and notice and welcome and celebrate your brilliance wherever, however it comes, and to be so bold, so wild, so free as to allow myself to be
overwhelmed with joy, not fear,
as your brilliance abounds.
The Rev. Erin Counihan serves as pastor at Oak Hill Presbyterian Church (PCUSA) in St. Louis, MO. She blogs at http://www.somewhatreverend.wordpress.com.
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