Corey Pagán-Banks

WTF!? George couldn’t breathe God!

Why couldn’t they hear him? Did you hear George crying out, God?

I am holding on to the hope that with every precious breath we are yet allowed to take— you are with us.

But, damn! How much more can we endure, God?

I must confess that it is hard to pray when it seems like you are silent.

It is hard to pray…

While the boot of the system created to criminalize and murder my Black siblings is pressing on their necks.

While the “Karens” of this society use their fake fragility wrapped in white privilege to call on a system put in place to criminalize and murder my Black siblings just because she can.

While racist with guns, often dressed as cops or professing to be vigilantes, shoot down my Black siblings while confidently leaning on laws used by the system to sanction their murders.

While COVID-19 is killing my Black siblings at an alarming rate due to the overwhelming and ever-present racial and economic disparities in the health care system.

So, I pray you are listening, God.

I am praying and believing that you are bigger than any and all systems.
I pray fervently seeking answers as to what it is I can do; what can we do?

Are you listening, God?

Because until all of my Black siblings, my husband, my children, my grandchildren, can all breathe free—wasting my breath is not an option.


Rev. Dr. Marilyn Pagán-Banks (she/her/hers/ella) is a queer womanist freedom fighter gratefully (though not always gracefully) serving as executive director of A Just Harvest, Senior Pastor at San Lucas UCC, and adjunct professor at McCormick Theological Seminary. She is a joyful contributor in the newly released book “Words of Her Mouth: Psalms for the Struggle.

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