Oh why can’t I be like the sower in the parable-
ready to throw seeds everywhere,
throwing caution to the wind
allowing my perfectionism to drift away in the breeze.
why can’t I be like the sower-
inspired to try instead of allowing my inner voice of insecurity to hold me back.
I grasp so tightly to the seeds,
waiting until I find the “perfect” spot to plant them
instead of allowing the Holy Spirit to direct their landing spots.
God of all Gardens,
may I release my tension, my worries
and allow your grace to carry these seeds
to the soil that will nurture them.
The Rev. Michelle L. Torigian is the Senior Pastor of St. Paul United Church of Christ, Belleville, Illinois. Her essay “Always a Pastor, Never the Bride” was in the RevGalBlogPals book There’s a Woman in the Pulpit. She also has chapters in the books Sacred Habits: The Rise of the Creative Clergy and A Child Laughs: Prayers for Justice and Hope. Torigian blogs at http://www.michelletorigian.com.
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